jw

2010-11-12T07:38:00.000-08:00

i'm back, and thinking.
nothing much goign through my day cept for CG.
been thinking back about just now, trying to squeeze out every ounce of whats left to remember.
important lessons to learn.
1. be aware of how i project myself such that i can effectively express and convey intentions, even to the least initiated.
2.be confident during P n W. Enjoying bringing them in
3. be attentive to leaders directions, how they paint the impressions and splendour of Him, and flow in it
4. transitions can be worked on. learn to flow with Musicians
5. hand signalling can be more discrete.

More?

2010-03-24T19:36:00.000-07:00

after all, it's all about me.

another random moment.
March 2010. Here I am.
Spending my last month as a 20 yr old.
maybe I'm waiting for a 'new start' again.
i wonder if anyone else tries to find an excuse to 'start afresh'
at every milestone event
(new year being the commonest of all,birthdays, anniversaries, and yes, even at funerals)

ever looked back(yeah we've done that way too many times) and wondered what you've been up to all this while. 2 decades. man it's a long time. but i reckon my most significant hallmarks were forged only in the last half a decade.
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reality check
im a ABC B B student(averaged b grader all round).
im STILL in my full time national service.(1 year 2 mths to go)
im single.
im an amateur guitarist/enthusiast
i do not have a clue where i 'm heading even though i've 'made a choice'.(NUS EE to be exact)

it's time to sit back. and ponder.

Purpose.
Love,Joy,Peace. in all things.
there we go. an aim.

now to figure how to get from reality to purpose. ha!
resources
God.
Family.
Guitar.
Time.(as a stayout personnel)
Income( blessed through SAF, however little it may be, it's enough for now)
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im well positioned. i have some resources.i have a goal.
what i need now, is a plan of the journey.
more importantly, it cannot be a plan i make(cuz it's bound to fail)
it'll be so exciting to have the foresight/overview of your life's journey ain it?
but here's where things get exciting.
the plans are in His hands.

2009-09-28T06:42:00.000-07:00

well, 2 months never blog, and now im back again.

not that i have many thoughts on my mind.

i think i shall come straight to the point.

i'm bored..

now am i really bored?

maybe...cuz i feeling lonely.the spirit of loneliness.

but im FEELING lonely doesn't mean i'm alone!

faith is a muscle.hearing God is like a muscle too.

i 'heard Him' and i shall keep it in records.so that shud my memory fail me, i can come back here, and i can remember.

okay, more like encountering. in a really small way.

i asked.He answered.

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well, 2 months have come and gone.

it felt so good. too many things have happened.

so an update in terms of milestones.

i was forced to confess.things didn't work out.was in turmoil for awhile.(2days+remnants for another week).still friends.still have feelings.but not dark and obsessive.but holding with a really loose hand.

i'm out of H and am now im a N$F.my ORD? 23May2011(pending possibility of disruption)

im more active in CG.CG frens moved up.new CG frens came in.Im still around.

i joined global outreach in hope that well clearing leave in august, i cud do smthing.

but din happen.

i went taiwan(haven been travelling for YEARS trust me.and this trip is precious to me.)

i joined church choir.(tenor section as there was no bass section)

i sold my FG206E($200) to balai.i SOLD my PS3 to ernnie seow.($600)

i bought a Taylor Big Baby($695) and signed up for guitar lesson with BelieverMusic.

(i intend to develop my miniscule musical 'talent'.with only faith to bring me on)

i got cheated on ebay $900 for iphone scam.police caught the lady.court adjourned.

(was bitter for a week. but learnt to let go after making police report)

haven seen her for a month now. there was peace and joy doing so.im so much more alive.

i still love her.but i've learnt to let go and let God. for if it's His will, He will speak to her, and she will open up to me eventually. but God is still here for me no matter the result.and im just happy and thankful for this situation now,trusting that it is still going to improve, simply because its the Dektos Year.free favors for the last few months to RESTORE ALL that is LOST. all that's left for me to do , is to Worship.=)

2009-07-27T03:09:00.000-07:00

yup, its gonna my attempt at writing on my the Zone 09 Conference.

it's not gonna be a summary. it's not gonna be just another rush of blood to the head.

just a simple guy.just a simple experience.

my 2nd visit to the Zone conference since i missed the last one.

starting off with the Workshops. I'm glad they started the way they did with Hillsong Worship Team sharing with us about t

he practical/'under-the-hood' experience of building the Music Ministry back at the Hills.Down Under, really?!

they mentioned the importance of craftsmanshi

p. developing ways to train younger people and provide them opportunities to serve our Lord on the platform.this is important to me,as it would be for anybody developing an interest in

serving in t

he Music Ministry. that its about developing craftsman for the Lord to FILL His people.it's also about developing people that 'share the stage',that ushers in

NEW and YOUNG generations of musicians and training them.that way,Music won't stagnate.

It's all for God

and about Pastor Judah Smith, he knew why he was here.the Grace gospel 'exploded' with Life through his preaching.Kinda like having rabbits,pigeons,cats and all sorts of other animals coming out of a magician's hat!there's absolutely no telling what he was gonna pull out the n

ext moment. 10mins crash course on the LIFE of Joseph?ha! Pastor Smit

h is really anointed.

He also touched on the issues of sexuality. A very real,very relevant modern da

y problem.

oh,and one more thing.Worship? a picture speaks a thousand words.enjoy

When troubles come BECAUSE of the Word

2009-05-29T08:45:00.000-07:00

When trouble arise because of the Word, persevere! For whatever takes root and a hold on your life IS what produces the very manifestation you are waiting for...
This is the case of my life right now... In the natural, I am feeling the dissapointment of being denied by a superior to take leave for History Maker09. But somewhere in the deep recesses of my heart lies this revelation that God has the FINAL say in My life... It's this moment where I believe, and believe even though I'm scared. God, you have worked so many miracles this year already. I thank you for the manifested blessings, yeah even this one to come...
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Regarding my career. I am already satisfied with where I've gone so far in this career. It's for me, a time to move in to the next phase in life... Engineering? Teaching? God, begin a new work in me!
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regarding , God break this bondage from me... I want to experience the real deal. A real intimate relationship, and I know it begins with You. It's a whole lot easier to type and publish this ' dirty laundary' out than to tell anyone. But I know I gotta let it out somehow, to break the yoke( it's By His wisdom that this came to me)

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Lastly, regarding relationships, I need a refresh button for my family life. A refreshed love for and from my family in grneral. Also,
I know deep inside that I'm not that ready for this yet, maybe hormonal rush, maybe the flesh, maybe the environment.maybe just my weakness. I ask for wisdom to discern the right time and age, the very good choices presented to me, and a heart that's already overflowing with the covenant love that I can love another with, and not to seek to receive it only. I also pray to bind the very fear of 'losing the ONLY chance' and that Gid has provided not just many choices but also many opportunities to each one choice

And this post is all through. He that hath ears let him hear the cries of my heart.
-- Composed on my iPod Touch

The happy(est) day (yet).

2009-05-13T04:52:00.000-07:00

I'm really happy for what happened( deliberate choice of word yes)yesterday. Really deeply enjoyable..it wasn't any intense feeling. It's just this sweet and peaceful evening in lalaland.yeah haha. God knows how long I've been waiting for such a day as this. I believe it's a divinely planned and blessed time because the seeds for this harvest have been sown. And with such amazing grace there was patience to wait year upon year on the Lord for his answer, bring transformed throughout the process.it's not the end of it all, but only a new and exciting beginning for us.miracles do happen.God bless and blossom this special friendship.like never before.
Also with regards to career, His spirit is moving in the situation, as I just stand and watch the battle. I'm already more than a conqueror!enemies still come about roaring, only to see them flee before me 7 ways.God is indeed good. The battle may not be over just yet , but here I see on the cross and claim by it, that victory is mine!
-- Composed on my iPod Touch

one day

2009-05-03T02:44:00.000-07:00

some days can be good, and other days totally messed up.

sometimes i feel that i maybe too temperamental for my own good.

on good days, i am really happy, and hope to share my joy with others.

on days where i take a fall, i shell it out at others. isolate myself, nursing my own hurt,feel unloved etc.

swinging from end to end. its pretty okay if I'm to remain an adolescent.

but now i want to be a man.i want to grow beyond that.

anybody can say they wanna be a man.

Im not just referring to being ANY OTHER man.

i wanna be a man's man.

only have one good example. Jesus Christ of Nazareth,Son of Man, Son of God.

he's the so-called perfect Man.

powerful. gentle. loving. just. kind. firm.

i wanna be as stable as Him.

to be so sure of myself,sure of my identity, know where my authority lies.

having the authority to command the winds and rain, and yet humble myself to the natural rules of the land.

to have gifts and talents working for the purpose He has put in my heart.

like wanna 做神仙 liddat hor? haha!

but who wouldn't if they could?

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well, these days i haven't exactly been very 乖 if u get what i mean.

not speaking as tho i'm proud of what i've done.

neither do i want to be ashamed of it, in some sense publicly. that in itself is pride.

but i can say im not to proud of somethings in my life.

bad habits that i have yet to overcome. He has overcome it all, so shall I with patience, and perseverance, one day, be free from my bondage.

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i now also wish to speak words over myself in my current situation.

as many have already known, I'm in the process of trying to be out of where i am right now.

i declare favor with my boss. and also that i may find strength to submit to him.

i know what i have in my heart. but i still want to do my best so that i don't waste time one earth. how is all this gonna work out, i have no idea. but one thing i know is that all things work together for good for His people.

3may2009

2009-05-02T07:38:00.001-07:00

Today is one of the more eventful and fulfilling days. Went out in the morning to jog, something considered luxury for me considering my work life. Then went for the church ns men meeting.hearing good news about humility and being teachable. Then went for patrick's birthday party cum gathering.

The whole day of hustle and bustle. And of course, I got to exercise my photography skills and gear. Yay!
I've been on a realy positive momentum ever since the start, rather the revival of praying in tongues. And of course, the really sweet thing that let me noe that patience does bring forth much fruit.I thank God for His love for me.
-- Post From My iPhone

The Lord is my shepard

2009-05-01T09:56:00.001-07:00

Everyday has become more and more meaningful as I discover more and more what I want to do with my life.
And I will follow my heart's desire blessing what I'm doing in my hand now even if it seems contradictory..

The Lord has given me a great present for my birthday. A sure sign. And I thank Lord for such a beautiful gift with such a style of giving.
In all things if we require manifestation of tangible blessings, pray spiritually by the Spirit and listen and watch attentively
-- Post From My iPhone

Sian

2009-04-27T07:48:00.001-07:00

Posting from my iPod touch brfoe I sleep. Trying to type furiously fast to see I'd iPod touch can heck what I'm trying to say and fortunately it got all 99% of what I wanted to say very accurately with about 5 word misses in total foe this whole para. Haha!

Oh yeah it's all worthwhile now to know that my wait was not in vain. God truly honoured it.yeah the day will come when I shall confess my feelings...but now's not the time yet I've got work to do....
-- Post From My iPhone

2009-04-23T06:49:00.001-07:00

nothing much to blog.

life is very...up's and downs...

i noe i asked for it before.

but sometimes this gets emotionally tiring.

but yeah, i'm livin' a day at a time.

each day i learn more to appreciate who i have, around me.

and what good things i can enjoy.

all the negativities come at me, but i noe i can choose not to look at them.

evil can be formed.evil can come before me.

but it will not prosper, and will flee before me 7 ways.

it is THE truth.

i am living by His grace every day.

lettin' loose of my abilities...so called.

i want what i want.

but above all, i want Him to be with me forever.

lets go!

2009-04-12T07:18:00.001-07:00

i shall not be a loser.

He is the reason, i give my best shot.

He lifts my head up high.

i'll take the plunge, and hope for the best.

2009-04-10T09:02:00.000-07:00

check my facebook.

i attented budak's concert today.earlier.

spent the day with ernest,liselle,bosty and kenneth.

and budak pantai of cuz!

had a great and fun day, and g;ad its STILL friday! haha!oops its sat now...

but yea. njoyed myself with Wii sports and rockband 2 at liselle's place.

before moving to town for dinner and a night of music and photog at esplanade.

and i broke the two week ice.again.

ha.

just gotta do these silly things once in a while.

cant just keep it to myself i guess.

the desire to share and ask along,its almost like a reflex action.

but i dunno what reaction or thoughts this might spark off.

i just believe in the best that can happen and just message.

no matter how lame, how chui i put it across, grace grace abound toward it.

and i shall see miracles.ahha!

sleepy,nite.

2009-04-09T18:10:00.000-07:00

sigh*...

sigh***

SIGH***

liddat its already the 4th year since i 認識 her le.

still very little 進展。

ha.i must be crazy lar.

got so many ppl out there. why would i want to be tunnel visioned?

and well, do i believe in the natural(日久生情 or Out of sight, Out of Mind)?

i thank my Lord i believe in His goodness, and His timing.

but still when i try and look back ar, all i see is a really long path behind me,which i took.

but a voice usually comes back at me, saying, its all worthwhile.its a lifetime experience that money can't buy.

i've never been so patient before.really just waiting. and hinting.and enjoying every step of it.

right now, i feel that a resloution has to be reached. but i don't know how. nobody's making any move.

i shall continue to wait. because i think its worthwhile.

Corrinne May~ 'how long is the darkness till we get to (see) the light?'

emo posts make me emo

2009-04-07T07:07:00.000-07:00

read emo posts.made me feel like blogging.though i don't exactly know what.

but it's always good to start somewhere right?

i haven't been in touch with writing(or typing for that matter). i think my language would have been in shambles by now.

i don't read novels anymore(God knows since when).i don't even read papers.

i read online articles,news snippets and stuff like that.

i read tech news and listen to tech podcasts(like tech 65!)

but i'll still try and churn out something decent once in awhile, while trying to keep my style of writing as accurate and grammatically sound,as well as 'real' at the same time.

basically this is just a test paragraph to see whether things fit into the blog properly.

i haven't really thought of what to write yet.

my life,for now, is a secret.its classified.

i hate this.but its all gonna change for the better soon.i hope.

doesn't it sometimes hurt to second guess yourself?

im tellin ya it does.

I'll be free soon. =/

i need to be like King David.

'get ahead(a head) in life!'

c'est la vie for now.

its full of weird things. and this thing called love.

2008-12-07T06:25:00.000-08:00

i feel like blogging today!

if u check my facebook acc.

u'd realise how bored i got...

so bored that i got a new PS3!!!!!! hahaha!

whoo~ finally sunthing to play with.

i've also restrung my guitar which 6th string snapped few weeks back.

i see sad faces on(figuratively speaking) on blogs of some of my friends.

mostly ns life and stuff.but i velieve is more of their lives outside of ns.

cuz nowmost of us arent exactly studying anymore.

we're forced into the workforce,the higher academia realm and what have you...

*hear (me)*

smile. because you have a choice. u have a right and a reason to!

*understand*

smile. even in the worse circumstance,you've got the reason...that is, you are righteous before God.YOur sins are forgiven you! think about such things

*believe*

smile. believe you CAN see a bright future because of what you have heard and understood.

*speak*

ways. either u believe it enuff to speak it out/declare/announce it to urself/friends.

OR you speak it out so that u grow stronger and stronger in that belief!

u heard.u understood what it entails.u believe it...even till the point where u are so convinced u can declare it.+ God is on our side

the result is called :FAITH

from the bible we live by FAITH and not by sight(sight of situation/circumstance)

on top of that,be able to hold on to your beliefs...let it stand the test of time(not for u to withstand the crummy stuff! but holding on to that belief so strong, that it has no reason not to manifest) tts patience

by faith and patience, whosoever shall have whatsoever he asks for.

simple?

patience tolerance

2008-11-24T02:45:00.000-08:00

i need more of these:

patience.

i lost my cool under time constraints quite a few times these few weeks

tolerance.

some behavior that isn't a norm in my life, i was unable to tolerate,even to the point where i thought it was a stupid mistake. btu as i ahve found out, there isn't really a mistake too grave to be counted as stupid. everything happens for a reason, its just that i havent found out, and to me at THAT MOMENT,it just seemed insane.

better public mandate/opinion

lets not hide this.i need to feel acknowledge and approved by firstly God,and then men as well.

what i dun see is that i gave up on His approval and started seeking what I like.thus the screwing up of m image amongst many aquaintances.hmm gotta change..

2008-11-17T05:38:00.000-08:00

it it were so easy for me to forget,give up, and move on...life would be so different.
but it isn't me.not the way i'd go.
not that it would be better for sure.
but LG(life's good!) for now.

sooner or later, i'm gonna become the next Zhuang Jun Wei...
oops!haha, its the main character in the taiwan drama i watching recently.
and its super lame and funny.

but oh well.
sometimes,if you haven't got a proper reason to 'give up and move on', like because the person you like is your sibling's boyfriend/girlfriend(same happend to the female lead in the show)
then DON'T.
don't live only to regret giving up without trying.
rather,hold it with a loose hand.
and let God work out what's best for you.
(but also learn to let what is bound to drop,leave your fingertips.don't struggle and hurt yourself)

oh random! playing dr. Love today..hahaha!

wahahahaluvyawahahah

2008-11-09T00:53:00.000-08:00

pardon my randmoness...

guess you'll learn something new about me each time..

sometimes i just type whatever comes alive in my mind at the moment.

and obviously from the previous post,i've been on an emo trip...thanks to the emo songs

i've been listening to....haha!

okay.gr8 week!

my ipod touch IS DOWN! oh God! it died.....not...

its home button sunk in actually.and since its the most important part of the ipod touch..(get to a showpiece at any apple store and fiddle ard with it,u'll see wad i mean)

so i got it down for servicing.

Praise God, gonna get a replacement model!

whoo~

next.i kop-ed my dad's N81 for use on a sunday.

its a good music phone,and it sounds better than iPod!(and i wonder what player would actually sound WORSE than iPod)[still! i love iPods.oh the irony]

if im not wrong,most jc pepps are halfway down the a levels!(grats,just 1 week more! haha)

and for the uni dudes, yea end of term exams....

phew,glad im still slackin now....hahahaha!

-jia you~~~! behind ya all the way!!!

Fall to Fly

2008-11-07T21:16:00.001-08:00

maybe its the way i've been living since i was born.

i give in easily to temptation.

i look at the pessimistic side of things.

i have a low sense of self-worth.insecure.

each time i fall,i can only depend on grace to pick me up.

and i still keep falling.

I'll never be able to run far in the journey of life this way.

and then came a precious few, that told me i could fly!

oh, surely they are Angels from above...

and one special angel gave me wings, called Courage and Love.

next,i'm on my way up the mountain, carrying these heavy wings.it felt like a burden.

my feet brushed against the rocks and pebbles.i kept falling down along the way.

i used my legs,human effort. they brought me to a cliff.

this would be the last time i'd fall.

today,i'll finally fall to my death..

i stepped off the cliff.

i was convinced that i didn't start sinking.but

the world had already begun to ascend into heaven...

Corrinne May- Fall to Fly

n Winter Days The Snow Would Glisten Like A Sea Of Diamonds In The Sun
all Bundled Up In Hat And Mittens
i'd Be Out The Foor And On The Run
to The Meadow My Place
beneath Branches Of Icy Lace
arms Held Out Eyes Shut Closed
i'd Lean Back And Just Let Go

and I Would Fall To Fly
a Snow White Angel I'd Spread My Wings To The Sky
how I'd Glide

but Soon I Craved The City Lights
they Seemed Far Brighter Than The Moon On Snow
turned In My Wings For Earthly Things
forgot The Feel Of Clouds On Indigo
i Was Strong, I Was Proud
keeping Both Feet On The Ground
i Feared That Love Just Like I Feared Heights
i Just Didn't Realise

and I Would Fall To Fly
a Snow White Angel I'd Spread My Wings To The Sky
how I'd Glide

'cause Now You've Come Along
like Falling Snow At Dawn
you Move Me
and With You By My Side
we'll Soar
we Will Climb Straight To The Heaven's Skies

yes I Can Fall To Fly
a Snow White Angel I'd Spread My Wings To The Sky
yes I Can Fall To Fly
'cause Now I'm Gonna Give Love A Try
fall To Fly

on Winer Days I Wait For Snow And Then I Know The Angel Flies Once More
fall To Fly, Fall To Fly

the 2nd most wonderful relationship next to family:friendship by grace

2008-11-04T05:37:00.000-08:00

took a bold step today.

like any other historic moments of my life. it feels momentarily like jumping of the cliff,and aftr that split second, all i could depend was not on my efforts.but on GRACE alone.haha

think maybe like freefall parachuting...haha.

okay.maybe not that dramatic.

but the feelings are real.and close.

maybe its bad experiences in the past,but past is past.

and still we gotta move on.

getting a gift.. whoo~

i didnt take the 'easy' way by just abruptly shoving it into hands,that i do not know whether was willing to receive.

grace taught me that when i wanted to be a friend,i'd be honest.to the core.in a nice way.(if possible)

God is good!He's gr8! He's incredible!wahahahaha.

its a step forward.carried by GRACE alone.and i thank Him for it.

Jesus lead me on this journey.its a gr8 beginning of a wonderful friendship!

offday1!SPRING CLEANING

2008-10-21T20:28:00.000-07:00

whee~ the power of mobile broadband!

yea, as im tapping away on my keyboard, im actually on a bus ride to tampines...hahaha

started 'spring' cleaning my room last night.

it was in quitte a horrific state!

thank goodness mommy offered to help me abit.

at least got my 'wardrobe' settled now...

i realised how much junk i have lying in my room,besides the army stuff la(field pack,duffel etc.)

my gadgets' packaging are the worst.boxes and boxes of them.

taking up alot of space.

coupled with the fact that my work desk was aging, it now makes sense why im heading for ikea.

target: storage solutions,cd racks,desk. (hopefully my parents will sponsor my next wardrobe cupboard la.haha)

got my leave approved!(this also explains why i am blogging/shopping/springcleaning!)

will be back after deepavali. so must enjoy my offdays while i can haha!

decision making.following the crowd?

2008-10-14T20:24:00.000-07:00

long since i screamed 'FAKE!' in the face.
even tho that is what i see.
people demand/ at least want people to be 'sensitive' to their feelings.
and make me end up sugar-coating things.

i like the -IN-YOUR-FACE approach of doing things.but its not accepted well in many places.
sometimes, we just cannot afford to be that 'zhi jie'.sure get hoot by some clowns.
but i believe in being genuine firstly to myself. and then also consider people's feelings.
sublimating things; would you lie(tell half-truths/things not in its totality) to others, or lie to yourself(and conform)?
the answer we all want: 'neither'.

but i think,and the way i'd live it out, is to first not to be conformed to the way the world works,even if it means to go against the flow of the majority.
(very GL to some.but this is the kind of thinking that brings about big changes.)
lets not lie to our beliefs and say that, the other guys idea is better.i dun mean our ideas are FOREVER the best. but rather, dun just give up on ur ideals at the drop of a hat, or at the slightest persuasion of another.
it is important to first STICK WITH OUR BELIEFS,while sorting things out(weighing things out)[and for us folks who alr belief in a daddy GOd that settles the difficult questions for us;to ask Him to show the way]. once you arrived at the new/or same judgement of the situation, then you switch plans, or stick with ur original idea.

tts life like that for me.for now.

as usual,im not qutie coherent,but whatever!

2008-09-30T06:47:00.001-07:00

two days into the new life,things are already beginnning to happen.the good way.

now that i'm openly in peace with God, there are many things that God really helped me through.

i noticed that i flared up alot lesser.

somehow He assures me that things will turn out fine.

and so most problems and challenges these two days seem hopeful.

less likely to stay depressed this way.

the world would probably try to call it being positive,and psching onself till he is confident.

but i think its more of having a good opinion of Him who watches over me.yeah.

the days look brighter.only because i know He loves me, and that i have made it clear to the Devil, that he should never touch me again,because i openly declare that i belong to Him who loves me.=D

baptism

2008-09-27T03:32:00.000-07:00

i got baptized today.

yea, a public declaration of this relationship.

things are somehow so different, even whilst outwardly, nothing seems to have changed right this moment.

you'll start doing crazy things if u don't eat well! feed on the Word everyday!

2008-09-25T03:44:00.000-07:00

i tried to put the Word to some real world test.or something.
past few days, i've not been well fed in the Word.
dry and all, i still carry on with my daily living.
but things just totally spiral out of control without Him.

i wasn't rested as i thought i should be.
was angry most of the time.sorta like mood swings.
its like wanting to kick a dog out of the window.
that's how dry i got.

many things that can go wrong has already begun to go wrong.
but whatever.
its a learning moment i guess.and a turning point too.

what's life without ups and downs?
hah!

2008-09-25T03:26:00.000-07:00

what a hypocrite.
=/
but i'll not try to please everybody.
i'll just be as truthful as i can.
i haven't reached a stage where i can trust everybody.
or on another note, there exist people that i just cant live with.

what comes as a surprise, is that even people i thought i was close to, i have hurt much.
but life's liddat.
:(

i noe this head-spinning, heart-acheing moment.
it happened before.
i hurt one, and i'm sorry toward him.
yet to another that i've let down, i just hope i won't meet him again.

i'm not your typical friendly, smiley-face friend.
i throw lots of tantrums.
i overeact most of the time.
i flare up easily.
the list ca go on...

the point is, Jesus still died for me.
Grace still superabounds in my life.
a pity some relationships will never remain the same again.

as much as i want to boast of what i've done right, where instead some other people have done wrong and so on. all that is irrelevant.simply because those are just words of impulse.
i don't want to live in regret of what i have done. i'll just say here, to whoever deserves this:
'I'm sorry for what i've said that might've hurt you. maybe you won't like the color i have painted on your canvas of life.maybe i've put a scar to what you consider ideal living. but blessed are you that i have sinned against. i pray now my God restores you double(and much more) than you have lost. i can't pay for what i have done, because my King died on the cross to pay for all these trespasses. so smile! and look forward to a rewarding future! sorry im imperfect.and thank God that He is my perfector! =)

2008-09-18T05:21:00.000-07:00

new blog,old URL.

same old thing, just wanted to start a new bloggie signifying looking at things with a fresher perspective!

so whatever happened happened.

we won't undo it.

i'll leave the past with the tears of yesterdays.

now look at me!

blessed.truly.with better future coming ahead.real soon.

i have things i need, and things i want.even things i might not really want but still have anyways.

i'm happy.today.

Wind is coming! it came in advance.

and it came just few days after my sis asked if there's any chance the netbook might come early so that she could bring it overseas with her.

God brought it in early, so i guess i noe where things are going now!

but b4 that, i'll make sure i get my hands tinkering away on it soon.

collecting it tml or sat.

haha!

guitar has been rotting @ home for a week now.

so bored i couldnt play it in that i borrowed a book on electronics.

now i noe im becoming a dork.but who cares?

off, back to le~!

brb tml.

and i am speaking hope into my future.my prayers do work in His name, and i give thanks for people who are about to cross paths with me, and bless them , they that make me an adversary.for they that have made me a friend, has also befriended Jesus who lives in me and are already blessed in great measure.